Ian Lu

You... can't make the day seem right
And make the darkness bright
That's what you do

This ain't the life that I wanted nor I did imagine
Everyone thinks It's all fake for attention
But they don't even know how it feels inside
When a heart keeps breaking down like everytime
Cuz, I'm so broken, so lost, so isolated
Obviously you can't tell cuz I fake a smile
But in reality... I just wanna leave
Go home or embrace the darkness inside me
All the rich kids think they get to play god
Think they get to be whoever they want
Showing up to school with all these fancy things they own
And making other kids feel so fucking worthless
Well nobody's as lucky as you so shut up
And stop thinking of how weird someone is
It's called uniqueness or just being different
But obviously people like you wouldn't understand...

You... can't make the day seem right
And make the darkness bright
That's what you do

Everyday I wake up I feel so useless
Worst part of depression is that no one will listen
You think it's all BS? Something's wrong with you
All my friends are gone and here I am all alone.
I never wanted this, not even a bit
But because of a hellish childhood I had to encounter
No friends, fake friends, don't know who to trust
Everyone leaves and ignores me every-fucking-time
Had a best friend almost a brother to me
Started becoming so racist and triggering
Said "asians can only marry asians, no whites no anything
Gotta keep the bloodline the same you dumb fuck"
Made a stupid comparison with steak (asian) and ice cream (whites)
And mixing the two would taste like shit
Said "we are better than them, so don't be with white people
Otherwise I'd kill you and your white girlfriend" (Fucking racist)

You... can't make the day seem right
And make the darkness bright
That's what you do

I don't know how many times I have to fake my actions
A smile, an attitude and a simple conversation.
I wish people would really stop worrying about me
I'm really sick and tired of all these stupid accusations
Staff and counselors won't even listen
"I'm fine" yet... they still call my parents
Up to the point... where they hurt us... and tore families apart
I would never be friends with racists or bullies
That racist, well he doesn't control my life
I choose whoever kind of girl I want to be with, not you
Threaten all you want, I don't even care
Thought we were childhood friends, the 7 of us,
Knew that was all a lie since 2003,
you guys hated me so much
Up to the point... my life is now A.D.L.S.S
(Angry, Depressed, Lonely, Sad, Suicidal...
so worthless, so useless... don't ever want to see you all ever again)

You... can't make the day seem right
And make the darkness bright
That's what you do