Nick XL - Damien Karras

[Verse]
We used to talk a lot
We used to be friends
Knew I'd count on you in the end
Now you're just a room in my head
Read the book, I know all that it says
Every scripture I pondered in dread
I saw buckets of people all shuffling, dead
With a tie on their neck and some blood in their beds
But fuck it, it's something I guess
Personally, I turned to rap and some weed
Panic attacks and the lack of some sleep
I had a surgery back in '01
And I think that I tragically had to become
Someone that was sheltered and kept from the light
I almost lost every aspect of life
And it still feels like there is no difference now
God lift me up and I cut me back down
But I never look down on those people for nothing
It'd probably help me, just hoping for something
But I chose to go and bet all on myself
My biggest mistake was believing in hell
Cause nobody's punished, I see it's absurd
My father, a rapist, is free as a bird
And he use to have his own issues with Christ
Went back and forth between different lives
And when I get scared, and that shit's been often
I fold up my hands like I'm over a coffin
My mother has cancer and I feel exhausted
Trying to find me some flame but I lost it
So why I been talkin to god again?
Cause he has done nothin for me
And I never got any fucking relief
Why I still wanna believe?
[Outro]
I walk in and then I burst into a ball of flames
I walk in and then I burst into a ball of flames

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