Starving Narcissist - MAL DU PAYS (Monophobia)

(You were there all along
But still, you return home)

(I never leave the House anymore)

How can you be homesick if nowhere is home?
Just yearning for a place that you can call your own
So speak it into being, and it will be so
The words don't come easy, believe me, I know

Start again, this time for sure
Back to the stage, the days all blur
Curtains closed, but they're calling encore
Do you remember what came before?

... Does it even matter anymore?

How can you be homesick if nowhere is home?
(Haunt the stage like a ghost, feel the ache in your bones)
Well here we are again, round and round it goes
(A million tragedies, and you're the star of the show)
So wish it and curse it, sink lower than low
(Wait for the tide to roll in, the sea will swallow me whole)
The loathing comes easy, believe me, I know

Burn me out, sand me down
I'm too far deep to give up now
Deep breath in, deep breath out
An awful taste in my mouth
(It's all the same, it's all the same) It's all the same, the fever breaks
(It's all the same, it's all the same) If it means so much, why can't you say its name?
(It's all the same, it's all the same) Stomach aches , mal du pays
(It's all the same, it's all the same) Try to self-soothe, but your hands just shake

(You're all alone)

Start again, this time for sure
Back to the stage, the days all blur
Curtains closed, but they're calling encore
Do you remember what came before?

(Burn me out) So start again, the days all blur (A stranger to yourself / I can't do this, I can't do this)
(Sand me down) Back to the stage, you've done this before (The loneliest kind of hell / I can't do this, I can't do this anymore)
(Burn me out) Curtains closed, but they're calling encore (A shadow crafting spells / I can't do this, I can't do this)
(Sand me down) Do you remember? Do you remember? (Choking on the smell / I can't do this, I can't do this anymore)

(I'll kill the homesickness dead, until there's nothing left)

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