"i can't control my head"

album streaming now
https://open.spotify.com/album/7A0VUSvb93J8IEUx962joI?si=EpeG0nNASwaF45U3MZic0A

i made a short visual piece at a moment where i was in pretty bad shape this past summer and part of the reason i bailed on my flight back to LA -
i still believe in the power of being able to express something your experiencing in a holographic form that can actually help with the conscious and unconscious in accepting a difficult scenario - in this case it takes the shape of ‘cervical dystonia’ which is basically having a resting tremor, chronic pain,headaches, and involuntary jaw and kneck movement 。 to use a musica analogy it’s like having a ground loop problem which creates a hum and electrical imbalance 。

there aren’t any excellent options for this condition, and i don’t want to have brain surgery or get botox every 3 months to paralyze the affected muscle groups - so yes i’ll continue with singing (humming helps), qigong, massage and utilizing himalayan singing bowls, which is a big reason why i went so goddamn bowl crazy 7 years ago 。

blue mushrooms are also an ally with respect to increasing neurological flexibility but have to be used carefully and in conjunction with certain practices 。

i’ll share some things i’ve found helpful coming up for anyone else who has a similar neurological condition - thank reading watching and listening this piece is the first time i’ve ever filmed the involuntary movements ive experienced since i was 21 - and i hope you can enjoy the album that’s out - finding your own meaning within the music that maybe will provide a soundtrack to your own growth, acceptance and change (◐‿◑)

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